Sad...

Dear just left my house half an hour ago. It is 10.10 am right now.

The moment he left, my tears start streaming down my face. One last hug from him before he left sent my heart to the breaking point. I can't help it. Watching him go really breaks my heart. I did not want him to see me cry again. I quickly closes the door. Deep down, I really wanted him to stay on. I wanted to ask him to stay on. But I promise to let him go already, I would not do it.

As time passes by, he is getting further apart from me. No more short bus trip to his place or weekend dating at town. No more holding hands and hugs and kisses that would lighten my heart even at my darkest moment. I really am sad. I misses dear dear so much already.

I LOVE YOU My Dear Dear....

New resolution...

I have new resolution in my life recently...

Number 1: Lose weight to 50kg(or somewhere there :P)

Number 2: Have clearer and better skin.

I have embarked on new products to help me achieve that. The products are from Melilea. Not sure if you have heard about it but I want to introduce you guys to products which I think can be useful if you have the intention to lose weight or improve your skin condition without the use of chemicals.

Firstly is the Organic Health drink which can be mixed with Soya bean and Apple Orchard to help promote elimination of toxin in the body.

Secondly is Progene which is to help promote better skin.

Thirdly is the botanical skin care set. (very macam macam one to use. LoL)

Lastly is the ATS (Advanced Toning System) set -this one lagi macam and if use wrongly will kena electrocuted one

So far I’m using these things for about one month plus now. So hopefully this works.. Haha… On top of all this, I took up jogging every day for about a week now. Wish me luck yeah? I’ll update you guys on my progress. If you guys are interested in these things, feel free to ask me or can visit this site.

On the contrary, even though I said to lose weight, I have indulged in some good stuff.... ehem...let me show you.

Ferrero chocolate Dear bought for my mum which ehem...... ieatafew...ehem

this i believe...introduction is not necessary..haha

Pizza!! My favourite...haha.

That is why losing weight for me is hard... Too much temptation. haha.

Oh ya, Dear had blog about our trip and so far, dear managed to blog about Langkawi trip only. Haha. You can have a look at his blog to have a look. It brought many funny and happy moments into my memory.

Plus I still have several pictures that I forgot to post up. So here goes...

This is the dress that I said I bought in Langkawi. Only cost me RM 35. Haha.

This a t-shirt Dear's parent bought for me from Korea

And this nail clipper too. This is couple nail clipper. Dear got the boy one. I got the girl one. :)

This picture I really LOVE....Sweet right??????? *blushing*

This one is yesterday, dear hurt his finger while closing car door... Poor dear dear. Dear get well soon o. JoJo car got evil....must be careful next time if got follow his car. LOL

Okla I think this post is long enought ba? haha...now I want go watch the Mummy 3 staring Brendan Frasier and Jet Li on HBO. haha. Here's one song Dear intro to me de. I like it and I hope you like it too.

Till then..have a great week ahead..:)

Back to reality....

Went on a vacation with dear and my mum from the 3rd till the 8th of July. We went to Langkawi for 2 nights then to KL for 3 nights.

I had a great time but I was exhausted by the end of the trip. It was a very worthwhile trip and I really wish it would not have to end. If you only knew how happy I was during the trip being with the one I loved the most :) I do not have most of the pictures here with me. It is with dear and there are massive number of pictures, so I will upload and blog about it when I got them. Not so soon though, so be patient yeah? :) But I have a few here taken with my phone.

Lion Fish from Underwater World, Langkawi

This cute mammal is very cute too. Also at Underwater World, Langkawi

Corals taken from the Underwater World, Langkawi

Cute jellyfish from Underwater World, Langkawi

I bought this new perfume at Langkawi too :)

Dear bought this for me to go with a dress I bought :) (I'll take pic of it later)

Dear bought this for me too, together with his sunglasses. His was Rayban and mine was Bvlgari.

Anyway those were the happy times.

Coming back to Miri is dreadful because I have to face the reality. I'm really pissed off actually. Being away from Miri and reality really did gives me some sense of happiness and freedom to do anything I wanted to. I felt happier being away, I wonder if it felt the same if I'm away for long. I do not miss Miri at all.

Now my timetable clashes, I have to do something about it. I hate studying here. The policy sucks, the environment sucks and everything is not right! People are treating me cold...colder. I really dread living everyday. How I wish i do not have to wake up tommorow and face the truth.

Money and more money problem. What is it with everyone and money? When they have more money they can do whatever they want and they are happy? Making people feel like they worth nothing. Should I look up to those people for inspiration to succeed? I watched 13 going on 30 few nights back. (You can watch that if you had the same problem as I do) I wonder to myself, what if I got whatever I wished for, would I be happy? Beautiful, successful and rich. If you watched the movie, she has no family, no true friends and she did awful things to other people and worst still she lost her sense of herself. The sad thing is she has to lose the only person who understands her the most and watching him to get married with other girl would certainly kill anyone even the most cold hearted person. But the story ends with happy ending. The good side is, that is just a movie. In reality, you cannot undo such damage. Many people would say that they do not regret anything that had happened in their lives because if mistakes do not happen but how would they know it is a mistake? You know for sure chances are not always there for you. So how do you learn from it? Is it too late?

It is always easier said than done...I really want to go back to last weekend at Langkawi. I really do.